Emotions

Emotions that control our minds.
Jealousy that emerges is not kind.
Jealousy to control I must find.

Love that holds true.
Love lost that keeps me blue.

Hurt that runs from the start.
Hurt that broke her heart.
Emotions that control our minds.

Fear

Fear of the unknown.
Fear of what I may lose.
Please take this fear away.

Fear I have never felt before.
Fear I wish never to feel again.
Please take this fear away.

Fear of the future.
Fear of the past.
Please take this fear away.

Fear of my daughter growing up.
Fear of losing my wife.
Please take this fear away.

Fear of this strife
Fear of losing my life.
Please take this fear away.

Always

The pain in her eyes
I will always see.

The hurt in her heart
I will always feel.

My eyes were blind to the
destruction I caused.

My heart is broken from my
own self-destruction.

Live your life to the fullest

To live your life to the fullest,
you must find the love in
your heart and extend it
to all that surrounds you.

Breaking the walls

Breaking the walls of hurt and pain.
For the love I try to gain.

The woman I love so near.
To be loved in return so far I fear.

Answers I fear

My heart yearns for the love I destroyed.

Waiting for answers I may not want to hear.
Fear and sorrow may be what I now hold dear.

Loneliness is what I feel.
For the answers to questions I may fear.

Nightmare

Confusion in my mind.
Emptiness in my heart.
Sorrow & despair in which
I may never repair.
From the walls that keep
me out.
To my mind that seems to self-destruct.
Will this nightmare ever end.

Chosen path

My chosen path of self-destruction has led me here.
Why have I chosen to hurt the ones I hold so dear.

The love of my life
My beloved wife.

With the pain I caused still so near.
Why do I hurt the ones I hold so dear.

To the one I hurt so deeply

For the things I never said,
I am truly sorry.

For the things I have never done,
I am truly hurt.

For the pain I have caused you
I can only hope to have one more chance.
For you and only you are the one for me.

Sadness

Sadness & Sorrow.
Regret & Shame
Loneliness & Pain

Feelings that run deep.
Emotions that overcome.

Tears in my eyes.
Fear in my heart,
For the one that I love is far from my touch.

I am to blame.
I will live with the shame.

The hurt & pain I caused runs deep.
Minute by minute, day by day
I can only try to absorb the hurt & pain away.

Regret & Shame

Thru the changes in my life.
The things so beautiful to me,
may be lost from the mistakes I've made.
Regret & Shame of things not done.
Waiting for time to heal the
anguish I caused.
Thru the changes in my life I've
learned.

Daughter of mine

Daughter of mine
So beautiful & sweet
Life with you will always be a treat.

Thru the sadness that runs deep
in my heart, for all the time lost

A childhood I can't bring back.
For the things I missed I do regret.

Oh daughter of mine I will love you till
the end of time.

Questions

Questions on my mind.
Why I do the things I do.
Seeming to self destruct.
My life in turmoil.
My head in a state of confusion.
Why do I do the things I do.

Seeking Happiness

Tears that flow again & again.
Fears that seem to never end.

My heart aches to be loved again.
Will this pain ever end.

So hard with the hurt at it's peak,
To be with the one I love is what I seek